Well grandma is sleeping a lot now. She is probably going to get a catheter because she has congestive heart failure...which can fill your body with fluid and getting up to go the the bathroom all the time is just too hard on both of us. I'm doing ok...tired but ok....I miss my husband during the week. Robert has a busy class load and is working part time for the ITS Help Desk...little income but better than nothing. He is commuting here to Sandpoint on the weekends which I am grateful for. Our first year anniversary is coming up one month and four days...crazy how time flies.
I have been having trouble with grandma's daughters...they are mad about everything...they want grandma in a nursing home...and they hardly call or help out...it has been stressful.
I'm not always sure what to do with myself while grandma's sleeping...so I play a lot on Facebook...I have been working on getting the house cleaned up too...which is exhausting. If she thinks I'm throwing things away it upsets her so I am mainly organizing things. I got one room clean just to refill it when I cleaned an other room...crazy! Oh well.
She has Hospice which are a great support and help. They are very supportive and happy I'm here even if my family isn't =) I want to be home with Robert, but I know this is where I need to be. I hope that she doesn't suffer much longer, but I wish she didn't have to leave at the same time. I think she is scared and isn't letting go. There has been a couple of really hard days where I considered a nursing home might be a better choice...she may have had mini strokes. On those days Robert was here I would not have been able to do it with out him. Hospice has been great and they will help me to keep her home where she wants to be. They will send more help when things get worse.
I miss my friends in Moscow and wish I could spend time with you! I don't know how much longer this will go on...I hope grandma will have a peaceful parting. This is hard but I am glad I am here and that I can help grandma be where she wants to be! I am here for as long as grandma needs me. I am grateful for my husband who is willing to help me through this. This hasn't been easy on either of us...we miss each other so much during the week. Robert is lost without me...I worry about him =) I'm lost without him too.
